Reflection

I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror today as I was trying to calm little Ms. Teething. It caught me by complete surprise. Was that me? A mother? When did this happen to me? As I rocked her, a million thoughts raced through my mind, like a mental scrapbook of the last fifteen years. Wasn’t it just yesterday that I was dancing my life away in Buffalo? Or touring North America as a muppet? Or crying- I mean sobbing- because of my supposed infertility? God knows what he’s doing, and looking back it all makes sense... but it’s still surprising at times.

This tiny army of 3 encompasses 90% of my days, the other 10% is filled with doing laundry because let’s be honest, 5 people go through a.lot.of.laundry!!!! And I’m in it, I mean I look at myself in the mirror (almost) everyday, but today I saw myself in the middle of it all. And it was such a calming sight, no not the lack of make up, that was rather alarming, but the fact that I grew up. I’m not perfect, no way no how, but a lot of the time I get caught up in wanting their childhood to be that, perfect, that I forget to stop and breathe. So today, I had an unexpected moment of reflection, a fleeting moment which will stay with me for a while. 

I’m a perfectionist in my life and in each task I take on whether it be a friendship or a project or choreography, or a show... and that has bled onto my children. Golly piffle, I KNOW they’re not going to be perfect but I want them to try their best at all times. I realize that’s something I need to work on. It’s too much pressure to put on these little people, I’m working on it. As Idina Menzel sings, I’m trying to 🎶 Let it gooooooo 🎶 as much as I can! 

So, it may not be today, because we are all probably going to be drooling over JT’s concert and then crying over This is Us, but sometime... give yourself some grace and look in the mirror- you are more than you ever thought you would be, you are amazing just the way you are. 

Now, go hydrate! 

I love you, thanks for the inspiration 💋